gamerboy03

Not that I think anyone will read this, but worth a shot anyway.

I am hoping to get an answer if possible, I have been wondering if my art is even worthy of commission prices.

I need a form of funding to get better equipment, to make even better art.

But it will probably be really cheap prices, just because I don't think my stuff is all too fantastic. But it does "okay", I guess.

I hope to hear a few responses soon.



Signing off,

I want to write about a simple or possibly complex sadness.

I am writing this because I woke up crying this morning, and I don't have any idea why or for what reason. I feel like something is missing or something is incorrect. As I write this, I am still crying, not sure what to do. On top of feeling compelled to visit my living room. For what purpose; it serves me no answers. I have tried sleeping again, no use, I tried distracting myself, again, to no avail. Maybe I am lost? Trapped? Wandering in circles on a temporal plane that isn't mine and that I don't understand. It's a void, I have felt this off and on for sometime now, yet only when my emotions are at there highest. This phenomena baffles me into a new sense of confusion. All the while I spend retracing steps to hopefully find the animal that left these prints, only a sound, or a tail disappearing around the next corner.

Always evading me. Ever elusive. No luck in any endeavor of this hunt. And every time I think I get close, something else is the cause, and not the thing I search for. Is it exhaustion? Loneliness? Not good enough? Or other unseen problems? I don't know anymore. It feels like I have been on this escapade all my life when in reality, it's been a few years. What are my next steps? What am I to do now? With what little family I have left, I get support and encouragement, and though I do not blame them or think they know, it feels like they too, their words are a void.

Empty...

I don't believe in myself, and I don't care for myself. Not sure why I don't, I just... I don't know. I would give anything to know, and how to fix it, I wish I knew as well. Yet, never have I had answers.

I feel that...

That everything I want to do or try to do, almost always gets pulled from me as I reach out to grasp for it... My life feels like it is slowly losing life; turning gray as it were. Bland, boring, and I don't know what to do.

I don't write, yet here I am spilling my words like it would change something. Hmm, ironic ain't it? I just felt compelled to say, write, draw something that would let me at least try to relieve myself. It doesn't seem to be doing it though...

When I was younger, I had a small diagnosed case of depression. And as my world grew, so did my outlets. These outlets allowed me to express myself in ways I didn't think possible. Until recently, I thought I was happy, where things couldn't get me down, where I was my #1 person! And yet, I had this tugging at me, my being. I put it off, and ignored it every time it showed up. And that seemed to work.

...For a while...

Now I can't get rid of it, kill it, slay it! I am at a loss and I feel defeated. I spent so much time avoiding my own stuff and helping others because it felt good, and possibly because it was easier. I didn't think it at the time. I was the guy that takes time out of his day to talk to people regardless of the topic, I have helped friends, family, and even total strangers through tough times and hardships. Just to find out my own demons are dragging me back to darkness whilst I fight to find the light. For you people who know me, you know I am that funny, lighthearted guy just out to make someone's day better. Now I need help and can't say it. It's dark and quiet down here, and I don't know what to say or do. I just...

...I don't know...

I am a wallflower so to speak, keep to myself mostly and consider myself to be the observer in most cases. But I sprout after a while, if given the chance. But there are things I keep to myself and for my own reasons. I don't ever say anything because I feel it to be a burden on others or it's something I need to do myself because it is my problem to deal with. I wonder if that has something to do with that whole wallflower thing. I like to do things on my own, and give my current circumstances, I don't have many friends left...

I feel secluded.

Alone...

Not sure if it is any good. XD
But worth thinking of I think.

Well, I have 15 amiibo's.
They are all for my copies of Super Smash Bros 4 for Wii U and 3DS.

I was considering making a tournament for them. XD

So, I have trained all 15 of them to the max level myself, and I am a decent player, so they should do fine.
Here shortly, I will provide the list of said amiibo's. But whoever guesses the winner from start to finish, you have to stay with the character you pick, will receive an undetermined prize, (still thinking on it), and I will post new doodles for every match about to start, and who wins so you can keep up. I will keep a roster available to follow so people will know what the progress is.

Rules:

• 1 vs 1
• Random Omega Stages only
• Stock: 10
• Time: N/A
• Items: N/A

Combatants:

• Mario
• Luigi
• Princess Peach
• Bowser
• Link
• Princess Zelda
• Ganondorf
• Samus
• Pikachu
• Charizard
• Kirby
• Fox
• Megaman
• Sonic
• Gold Mario

So, I shall provide a roster if enough people are interested. Also, until further notice, any ideas or donations for prize ideas are welcomed openly, but if something is donated, and this isn't is enough interest, the product of interest shall be returned, such as: points, currency, etc...

Any comments left on this journal with who you think will win before the unannounced date, due to being able to see if it is in anyone's interest upon which I will add that date, shall count as entries. Anything following it will not be accepted due to possible knowledge further into the event.

Without further ado,

I shall sign off for now,

Signed,

Guys, this needs to be seen now!! Their is someone stealing everyone's art, your's could be there too, please check out this post, it shows you what site it is, and a petition to stop it. And it is over half way signed. This is big, please, they are not only stealing it; they are charging for it!!

Spread this around like wildfire and get this taken down. This is not a drill!!

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Also, glad to be back!! Sorry it is on such a sour note. But I thought this needed sharing.

Signed,

Alright everyone, I need assistance.

I am in need of a new project. But I am not alone in this.

and I are putting together a rant and review series online.

But we need your opinions on what to rate or rant about. XD

And depending on what it is, we may also need voice talents from several new people, cuz unfortunately, we can't do a dozen voices on our own. XD

So please feel free to leave a comment on what you might want to see.

See you all next time!!